TOM is almost over. I'm starting my first injection on Saturday. I'm so excited about mixing the HCG and bacteriostatic water and using the injections. haha what a weirdo. I can't wait to inject myself...for reals! I can't wait to lose all this yucky fat. How can I allow myself to gain all this fat...man! im 35 lbs over weight. I hate it. I feel like im a big ball of fat with a face. ewwwww! i cant recognize myself. I know I'm known for my square jaws, but man! im just a fat rounded faced girl right now. ewwwwww! i hate myself for eating too much. The worse part too is not being able to fit in my clothes. I struggle every time I have to dress up. I have to wear yucky clothes just to be able to go out of the house with clothes. I look like a tramp...super squatter looking! I really look like a poor person with mismatched top and pants. Last monday, i had to wear a dress to church just cuz i couldn't put on any pair of pants. i hate it! I refuse to buy new clothes!!!! I already said im not going to buy any clothes until I lose 10 pounds.
Can I still dwell on being fat??? hahahah When I'm fat i feel yucky....I dont have the energy to put on makeup...or even fix my hair. It's like a domino effect! when you dont feel good, everything else just seems to be crappy! I was in Baguio yesterday for work. In the room, when I was fixing my stuff, i was huffing and puffing. My brother was like, damn! you really need to lose weight. You're breathing hard. He laughed at me even more when I brought out my suitcase to the car. WTF! I hate my fats! I really really want to get mad at my fats so I will never allow them to come back.
Anyway, I'm hoping that I can lose as much weight as normal people who are not hypothyroid. I've read that people with hypothyroid will lose less weight. If i have to go thru 3 rounds, I'll do it. I'm here to succeed! I despise fat...so I need to stick to this HCG protocol. All I can say is that I'm super excited to start on saturday! I keep staring at the HCG and bacteriostatic vials...can't wait to mix em. haha
So there! Good luck to me and I'll keep updating my journey.
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